mother

mother, am i

you in the cosmos of time,

you in the twin of a wink of

random consciousness?

Am I you pretending to be free?

Or am I free to attempt to be you?

And if it seems that I avoid you,

is it because of the memory long forgotten

of how you tried, but failed, to

make me you?

It cannot be, you see.

I am far too much like you

to even want to become you.

And you are too different from me,

to even understand that lost in this poem,

in the lyrics of a sparrow’s silent song,

is the hurtful yearning to be free,

to be me,

without the fear, the sadness,

and the guilt of you.

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Posted by Susan Ople on May 12, 2006 in Archives | 44 comments

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  1. frynx
    May 13, 2006

    Raising Estelle

    Sis!
    That was a very nice poem you made. I have known you as a good friend for a long time but I would like to commend you for being a wonderful mother to Estelle. During the time that I was with Estelle one spring time in Boston, I had noticed how you have done a great job in raising her up. She has grown up to be a well mannered,sweet adorable kid with a very strong character. I have always been amazed with the fact that she isn’t like any other spoiled brat kid that we often see around ( although she has all reason to act that way considering the stature of her late grandfather.)

    Last time I saw her, she still carried her sweet smile saying “Hi Tita! how are you?” I can’t help but wonder “how did toots make her to be like that? ” But it is not about Estelle ..it is about you and how you did a terrific job in raising her.

    I guess, I have to learn a lot from you sis in motherhood 101 :)

    Happy Mothers Day!

    frynx ( you know who I am! :)

  2. Riley
    May 14, 2006

    hey, happy mother’s day. :D This is a wonderful poem, I compose poems as well, but i never went to the side of the free verses. :(

    hehe. :D Good luck and bless you..
    ~Riley

  3. Migs
    May 14, 2006

    wow. great post. i think you should write (or post) poems more often. by the way, happy mother’s day! :)

  4. toots.ople
    May 14, 2006

    thanks riley and migs for greeting me on mother’s day! it was a fun day and your comments added flavor to it as well. take care!

  5. Matt
    Aug 6, 2006

    Beautiful. Very thought provoking. I’d love to know what feelings lie behind it. I think I agree with the ‘pretending to be free’.

  6. toots.ople
    Aug 6, 2006

    thanks, Matt!

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